A Dream - A New Mother

A month ago, I had a dream, and when I sat down to write it down, it came out like this...

A New Mother

Deep down in my soul

I'm crying out

and echoes play in my ears.

Once more it goes!

The sharpest pain has come again - strong, with the wind.

Unknowing

Unnerving

and Powerful.

I find a deep pool

Where the placid waters lap the wanting shores

I'm swimming, hiding in the bottom

I hear singing...or is it someone crying?

Peace for one moment.
Then all of a sudden I'm wracked with pain.
I can't hear, I'm gasping.

Yet, there's yelling.

Words piercing

FOCUS!!

Breathe

Could I forget?

Then, there you are with bewildered eyes

Wild.

Drowning just below the surface

I wonder how to save your anxiousness. I turn.

In your darkest hour

I can't help you.

I console myself with desperate threads

You'll be all right.
I hope I'm right.

I hear screaming

It's me.

There's pain, tugging, nagging.

Deep sensations.

Fear

Ignorance

This is no where close to bliss.

I can't stop it. I somehow I don't want too

I'm committed now.
And I will go on

Oh! I'm tired.

so tired,

so tired...

Wondering if I'll make it through

I can't see the end
But they promise me it will come.

I hurdle the worst of it
Sure that there is no possible way I could recover now
Sure that I'll be exposed forever
Sure that I don't have an ounce of sweat left in me.
Not one ounce left in me.

And then...

Finally..

Just like that.

I'm floating.

Looking down I see you.

Beautiful

Exquisite

Perfect

Enchanting

And I know
You were the best thing

That's ever happened to me.