in pieces

Leigh got some cheap tickets through work...and so we invited Sarah and Justin along to my FIRST EVER "aussie rules" football game. It was fantastic! Our team, unexpectedly won, which made it all the more of an enjoyable experience. Plus we were only 8 rows from the field...so we were close to all the action. And action there was! Mostly from the extremely "passionate" Collingwood fans that were surrounding us. After the game, we checked out the new batman movie - The Dark Knight, and lost $2 at the casino (I know, high rollers!) All in all, a great day in a beautiful city!

I love the sun. I know Australia is in a drought and continues to need more rain. But when it's sunny, I'm so happy. I'm especially glad it was out today - cause this morning I ended up getting up late, and I broke an egg on the floor, and dropping a cooked one later... Then I choked on the stupid thing when I finally got around to eating it. Leigh was standing behind me ready to do the Heimlech or whatever the new name of that procedure is called now. It was not a good morning - and I was tempted to return to bed, but the sun was out - and I had to get it on my face.

A month ago, I had a dream, and when I sat down to write it down, it came out like this... A New Mother Deep down in my soul I'm crying out and echoes play in my ears. Once more it goes! The sharpest pain has come again - strong, with the wind. Unknowing Unnerving and Powerful. I find a deep pool Where the placid waters lap the wanting shores I'm swimming, hiding in the bottom I hear singing...or is it someone crying? Peace for one moment. Then all of a sudden I'm wracked with pain. I can't hear, I'm gasping. Yet, there's yelling. Words piercing FOCUS!! Breathe Could I forget? Then, there you are with bewildered eyes Wild. Drowning just below the surface I wonder how to save your anxiousness. I turn. In your darkest hour I can't help you. I console myself with desperate threads You'll be all right. I hope I'm right. I hear screaming It's me. There's pain, tugging, nagging. Deep sensations. Fear Ignorance This is no where close to bliss. I c

I wonder why God made me sooooo emotional. I am always surprised at how even keeled Leigh can be in almost every situation. There are times that I get so angry that it even surprises me. I sometimes feel like I am outside of my body when I'm like this. I mean who is that crazy lady yelling? Oh - it's me, weird. Then there are days that I'm so happy I'm sure I could burst. Nothing can bring me down. Life is good and pure, and I see things that I don't normally see - like how amazingly blue the sky can be.... Nothing can stand in the way of my joy. It's amazing how extreme I can be - (and no I'm not pregnant to any of the smartie pants out there that wonder if I am!) I guess that I am just passionate. But is there a difference between being super passionate about something, and being super emotional about something? I have had to try to find the balance in between. This is what I've come to think... Passion is unchanging whereas Emotions can ch

Well we have been here in Australia now for over 6 months. I can't believe how quickly it has flown by. Leigh and I are doing great. We are loving it here and are finally beginning to really settle in. I'm realizing how long it takes for me in that. When we were a part of YWAM in Canada, I was always on the verge of being ready to "go". It was fabulous. But now when I have a clear indication that I'm supposed to "not go", it proves to be somewhat difficult to "not" go somewhere. I just about exploded when work had a training conference in Melbourne (1.5hrs away) and I was able to "go" somewhere for one day. Weird how easily you get used to things.